This Is the End, Beautiful Friend

I don’t quite know how to say what I’m going to say, so I think I’m just going to say it, right here at the outset, and then attempt some sort of explanation.

After today, I will cease blogging here. This will, in all likelihood, be my very last post on this blog.

You should all know that I really love blogging. And I’ve really appreciated those of you who have become daily readers and commenters (as well as those of you who read often and have never revealed yourselves to me). I feel almost as if I know some of you, like you are friends of mine. You have offered words of comfort and encouragement and support for this entire endeavor, and I really appreciate that. Much more than I could ever say.

So it is with a heavy heart that I say goodbye to this blog. Unfortunately, for reasons I’m not going to entirely go into here because they are immensely private and not entirely personal, it has become entirely necessary for me to do so. Know that I would not be doing this unless I were completely convinced of that. Part of the reason I haven’t blogged much since last week is that I’ve been kicking back and forth on this, mulling it in my mind, trying to see if there was another option, something I could do instead that would permit me to remain blogging. It’s had my stomach in knots, and kind of put a damper on my creativity.

In truth, I owe every single person reading this an apology. Lately, this blog has become something it was never intended to be, and it is for this reason that I must stop. I owe one person in particular an apology. If you are reading this, and you think I might be talking about you, then you are probably right. So just know that I am sorry, very truly sorry for absolutely everything.

I am going to resume blogging elsewhere, more anonymously. Maybe it is the wrong thing to do. Maybe it is just me running away from my problems rather than standing and fighting bravely on. You have no way of knowing, because I’m not going to elaborate on my reasons for leaving. Just know that I truly feel I have no other option.

Maybe I am making too big a deal out of it. It’s just a blog, after all. And not a very good one at that.

For reasons which are my own, I am not going to post the location of my new blog here on this site. It would sort of put a damper on the whole anonymity thing, for starters. Some of you have been following my blog here, and anyone who wishes to have the new address need only email me at the address to the left and I will send you the new address. I would ask that you respect my wishes to remain anonymous, and to sever all connection between this blog and the new one. You may link to the new blog, of course, if you have one of your own, but just refrain from making any connection between the new and the old or mentioning me by name if ever referencing the new blog.

Of course, this blog will remain here. I’m proud of some of what I’ve written here, as well as on my first blog site. I am going to set up a separate page here linking to some of my favorite posts of mine. I may not get this done by the close of business today (though I very much hope to), so if there are to be changes to this blog after today, that will be it. Maybe it’s unnecessary, but it’s something I want to do, for my own benefit, if for no one else’s. I am selfish to the bitter end.

I guess that just about covers it. The new blog is set up, and the first post is already there. I feel like there’s more I want to say, but there are just no more words.

The rest is silence…